Can we be real?

I'm tired. I'm tired of having so much to do that I don't do any of it. I haven't even had the desire. I'm tired of feeling so close to the Lord and then nothing. I know I shouldn't complain-I am blessed abundantly and I know it. Sometimes it's hard to find the joy in the everyday. Forgive my pity party, I'm just tired of pretending everything is okay. At the same time I acknowledge the fact that I'm not the only one. I'm really beginning to think that anyone who says they are always 'okay' or 'fine' are liars. Like I said earlier, I am blessed and forgive the pity party.